It’s not uncommon for people to say: “there’s never a good time to have a baby” implying that you’re never going to have all ducks in a row and be fully ready for what the challenges and adventures of parenthood hold. Ian and I were no exception.
When we decided to have a baby, we both had fine jobs, but hadn’t done much in the way of preparing ourselves with a huge nest-egg or logistics. People would ask what we were doing for childcare and I had no idea. All I knew was we were going to have this wonderful baby and we’d figure it out. When we had Teddy, I took a 12 week maternity leave, still with no real direction about what would happen after I went back to work. About five weeks into it, we came across Sarah. We were looking to do a nanny share and from the moment we met Sarah we knew she was an amazing caregiver.
It was literately at that point, when Teddy was only a couple months old, that I felt like I could have it both: a career I loved and a family I loved even more. It was Sarah who brought me so much comfort that I even decided to accept a much more challenging and larger job at a different company right after maternity leave. I knew that Teddy was going to be in such good hands that I felt confident and comfortable enough to take that leap.
And Sarah has provided us with that confidence ever since. The gift she’s given our family, of truly loving Teddy (and you should see how much he worships the ground she walks on) is beyond anything I could have ever asked for or expected. The peace of mind knowing that Teddy was in wonderful hands empowered me and Ian to keep growing our careers, all while keeping up with our family at home. There were days at my job when I was beyond stressed and yet, Sarah always put me at ease because I knew that Teddy was just fine. It was one less thing I had to worry about during the day.
Last night we got the bittersweet news that Sarah has accepted a new position and would be leaving our family. I’ve never felt such a juxtaposition of emotions: on one hand, so happy and proud of Sarah. On the other, so sad and devastated that she wouldn’t be part of our family on a daily basis. But in the end, I realized that despite whether Sarah keeps working for us or not, she will always be part of our family. She has been there for so much and I know that she’ll continue to be part of our, and mainly Teddy’s life.
And I can’t wait to see how well Sarah is going to thrive in this new role of hers. She’s so incredibly smart and talented and has patience beyond anything I could fathom. As I told her last night, if she was given this opportunity and she didn’t take it, I’d tell her she was nuts.
So though it’s bittersweet, it’s ultimately sweet. We’ll find a new childcare solution and Sarah will grow and thrive as a professional adult. And Teddy will continue to run into her arms when he sees her.